Wow

Something interesting that happened today...

Now as with every Sunday, i went to church. I got a email last night saying that the nursery needed help. Jumping on the opportunity to smother little kids with hugs and kisses and song about Jesus =] .

Let me back track a little. I have been under major stress lately and turned my back away from god. Thinking i was all high and mighty i was going to try to fix it on my own. I knew i needed his help i just didn't want it. And when i thought i wanted it i didn't actually want it. See i am trying to get into the local 54 union...cooking union basically...and i have been stressing majorly over it.

Back to this morning. Only one baby showed up! And there where two people in the nursery. The other woman i was with let me go back to service. It was literally the last ten minutes of service. 

Pastor went into this long thing about going on a road, but going the wrong way(ex: trying to go to Florida and end up in Canada). 

He said it is like with Christ. You may need his help and try to seek it, but turn their back away from it. Toward the darkness....toward damnation.

It had hit me. I need to really lay it all out for him. Leave it up to him. He knows what he wants me to do...and what is best for me. I need  to stop stressing out. It makes me sick....and i makes me over eat...

So yeah. I am leaving it all up to him now. He will show me the way.